Out of control
24th April, 2011 - Posted by admin - No Comments
I created this list because I felt my life was out of control and I wanted to set guidelines to balance it. I intended on taking everything one step at a time and doing things in increments. That’s not my natural style and I’ve recently reached the point where I realized it’s a little out of control again.
In January a few days before my birthday I had a moment of panic about what I would be doing two months into the future and applied for a new job via LinkedIn. I applied for the job and figured it was unlikely anything would come of it. I ended up getting it and am loving it. It is demanding though and as I am still learning the ropes and given my nature I am still struggling to balance it with everything else. It is also not in an office, although I have many opportunities to go out and meet people for it.
Anyway, the realization of not being in control started to become pronounced Purim morning. My roommate had two friends over for breakfast and although I had work to do I became distracted. A few weeks later I went to my relatives in the Gush for Shabbat and because I was trying to get an email out before it began I missed candle lighting (I sent it out before it began but didn’t make it to the candles before). The result was missing one of my goals. It deeply upset me and I tried to rationalize different things related to it.
There are other examples that I can’t think of now. Although I’m focusing on the negative there have been many positive things as well. One example is that I feel that through the Dale Carnegie course I’ve been taking I am gaining more confidence. Another is I’ve really been enjoying calling friends randomly and catching up with them. Of course, there are many more examples.
Posted on: April 24, 2011
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